unobtainable
'I know I can be better than I was yesterday, better than I was today. And I might not fucking feel great all the time, but I sure as hell will be far from this place.'
— Plainkid - (Reminder to self)
socotic:

more here
'I think about dying but I don’t want to die. Not even close. In fact my problem is the complete opposite. I want to live, I want to escape. I feel trapped and bored and claustrophobic. There’s so much to see and so much to do but I somehow still find myself doing nothing at all. I’m still here in this metaphorical bubble of existence and I can’t quite figure out what the hell I’m doing or how to get out of it.'
Matty Healy (via ehtes)
'You never get over it. But you get to where it doesn’t bother you so much.'
The Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides (via suspend)
can-u-just:

sick ass clothing brand ‘blvckfive’
probablys:

the vaccines // weirdo
acslaterrr:

california vibes
'

Day 1: I cried so hard that it scared my father; he spent the night outside my bedroom door just to make sure I didn’t stop breathing like a newborn in her crib the first week

Day 2: I went to work and cried in the bathroom

Day 3: I believed I was cured, now I think my mind was playing a cruel joke on me

Day 4: I told you I missed you and you replied with “thank you”

Day 5: I saw a picture of you on Instagram and it lit my throat on fire so I burned your love letters over the flame

Day 6: I smoked weed with a boy on his back porch and he asked questions you were afraid of but still I couldn’t kiss him on his couch

Day7: I couldn’t sleep because I kept dreaming of you kissing other girls on your couch

Day 8: I gave you all of your stuff back and you thought I looked like a warrior but really I went home and cried an entire ocean into existence

Day 9: I laughed without you

Day 10: I kept finding excuses to text you and you kept ignoring me

Day 11: I cried until my stomach heaved itself up and I slept next to the toilet in case those nasty dreams came again

Day 12: since when is heartbreak so goddam romantic? There’s nothing pretty about losing feeling in my knuckles after squeezing my hands so tight to keep from texting you

Day 13: I could never squeeze them tight enough; I could never have imagined that you would be so good at letting me fade

Day 14: the doubt makes my spine feel less like vertebrae and more like a giant icicle (you never loved me)

Day 15: I found out you had replaced me and it flicked at my bruises but my ribs didn’t break

Day 16: I told everyone about you and they said you were stupid for leaving but I think you were stupid for staying the first time you sliced my heart on the side of the road

Day 17: I didn’t think about you for an entire night because I was drunk in bed with someone else

Day 18: what color are your eyes? How big are your hands? Where was that freckle on your face I used to look at while you slept?

Day 19: sometimes all I feel in my chest is my heart trying to break out of its cage I think it’s tired of everything I have put it through

Day 20: I’m sorry I couldn’t ignore your birthday; I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry

Day 21: this was a shitty poem about a shitty person but I don’t think of you so much anymore, I don’t think of you so much anymore

'
they say it takes 21 days to break a habit (via khanti-karuna)
nuvereau:

happy❀
prxme:

urban/skate